I just can’t diet anymore. I have reached total “diet” fatigue. I think that ever since junior high I have tried every single one. For a while I took it to major extremes and got myself into trouble, developing an eating disorder at the end of high school that took me years to heal from.
Food can be so healing, and yet food is our country’s leading cause of death. http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/releases/6438.php
Food has become more addictive than cigarettes or cocaine with all the salt, fat, sugar and chemical additives. http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2011/11/03/fatty-and-sugary-food-as-addictive-as-cocaine-and-nicotine_n_1073513.html
It’s no wonder people are spinning around in addictive cycles with food. preoccupation > ritual > acting out > guilt and shame.. and repeat. There is a lot of pain stored in those fat cells.
I can’t do it. It doesn’t work. The only thing that does work for me is a longterm lifestyle and psychological change. A crash diet is not going to make anything better.
I don’t want to ever look at food as the enemy again, or deal with total panic after eating something. Food addiction is the worst in my opinion because no matter what you have to face it 3 times a day.
I only believe in mindful eating now. In my opinion it is the only thing that works. Every time i look at food now I want to feel gratitude not panic. Really thinking about what it is that I am eating changes my choices. If my thoughts are more focused on loving myself, and appreciating my health, and loving my body - that over time changes my choices. It has to be a long term lifestyle change. it has to be about appreciation for the abundance we have when so many millions are starving. It has to be appreciation for all of the people all down the line who grow, pick, process, ship, organize, cook etc. until it reaches the table. etc.
The more nutrient dense foods you eat the more you crave them and the less you want junk. But I think if you really want something - have it. But don’t ‘coma eat’ it. Don’t shame eat it and then starve yourself out of guilt. Don’t let it overcome your thoughts and destroy your day.
The diet industry thrives on that cycle. The fashion industry also thrives in our body dysmorphic culture. I don’t want to waste any more time on these things in my life.
Ever since I started down this way of thinking it has healed me so much. I still have to catch thoughts that come up in my mind out of habit but I just dissolve them. I will never diet again.
"First, let us reflect on our own work and the effort of those who brought us this food.
Second, let us be aware of the quality of our deeds as we receive this meal.
Third, what is most essential is the practice of mindfulness, which helps us to transcend greed, anger and delusion.
Fourth, we appreciate this food which sustains the good health of our body and mind.
Fifth, in order to continue our practice for all beings we accept this offering
- The Five Reflections, from the Zen tradition”